I’m tired, uncomfortable and cranky. Being nine months pregnant in June in Arizona-well, that was just bad planning on my part. Adeline doesn’t have any concept of what is going on, and she doesn’t understand why my lap disappeared, or why I don’t chase her around like I used to. My patience is thin and most of the time I just want this baby out!
Sometimes though, I think she can take her time. I’m in no rush, right? One minute I’m so, so excited about the new baby, and the next minute my heart breaks a little bit when I think this could be the last nap that Adeline and I take together, the last breakfast or lunch where it is just her and me. It is just crazy to think that she’s been the sole focus of my life for the past eighteen months, and soon she won’t be. Sometimes it makes me sad, like I’m taking something away from her by making her a big sister.